eye opener

i really love experiencing things i've never been exposed to before - whether it be gaining new skills, learning about something foreign, or meeting new people.

Just like I wrote about in the last entry, I've been super stressed with a bunch of things to do. I feel like the more I accomplish, the longer my list of things to do gets. It's also probably because everytime I make new lists, I make them more detailed as to what I need to finish.

With stress and bad days, I've learned that I become really easily irritated and really sarcastic if it's an awful day. I really try to turn my bad days upside down and to remain positive, but it really just wasn't working out on Thursday. More details later.

I've also learned some things that I want to focus on for the future. Being more detail oriented and meticulous is something I've wanted to strive towards for a while, and I want to work towards that by thinking more about the next few steps that need to be completed when I put myself to it. Haha I want to get my stitches perfectly straight. I shall practice in the summer! Maybe you'll see more creations from me in the next few months.

I also need to get into the mindset of accepting that friendships built here in school will always be subject to feelings of hurt when competition comes along. It would be stupid to give up an opportunity for friendship, it seems, and I just really need to understand that, and to become ignorant of that feeling of betrayal. Life goes on, and everything happens for a reason. Better things will come for me, and it'll all work out.

Another example of how everything happens for a reason revealed itself to me this past Thursday, yes the one that wasn't that ideal. I was invited to a Fraternity banquet event (though a long story dependent on short notices goes with that one) and I eventually kept my priorities straight and declined it. I needed to do a lot of work in the work room and a whole lot of other things after that. Good thing too, because the minute I got to the work room and I opened my tool box, I found my Petronios (permanent glue used to keep our bags and shoes together) wasn't closed correctly (my bad) and had soaked a good portion of my tool box and the tools in it. I was lucky enough that the majority of it spilled into a plastic baggy that only had some bulls eye clips and my grey thread (that was crap anyway). The rest was coated along the bottom of the tool box.

Had I decided to have fun instead, I wouldn't have been able to salvage those expensive tools and other items! Thank goodness. It was still upsetting, but I cleaned it, and after I go home, I will invest in a new tool box and throw this one out. I mean, it would've been okay anyway, because I had received this tool box from a previous Accessories Design major who returned to his home country. I'm a lucky girl...through and through.

Thursday still was still pretty frustrating though, due to the fact that all the sewing machines were taken and I couldn't continue with my work until certain things were finished. What's a girl to do though. I got over it, did the sewing this morning, and will continue tonight. I will finish everything. It will happen!

Um, I'm totally supposed to be doing ecology research right now. This debate is kind of freaking me out at certain intervals. I suppose I've also learned that the work I need to do for my liberal art courses now require more breaks because I can't focus as much. If I were working on my creations though, I'll continue straight through till I'm done. Some music always helps. Sigh, this ecology and enviromental problems stuff is just more difficult.

Like I've always said, i'm living and learning, and loving it all.


though no lie, RIGHT NOW, i really just want to curl my hair for fun, paint my nails and toe nails, make some leather bracelets out of my scrap leather, go out for a run, play some tennis, and curl up in a warm bed and watch a movie, read a magazine, and a book, and just laugh.